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The books that made me Only reading can prepare us for life's tragedies

In younger and more innocent days (Louis MONIER/Gamma-Rapho via Getty Images)

In younger and more innocent days (Louis MONIER/Gamma-Rapho via Getty Images)


April 18, 2022   4 mins

The first experience is hardly a memory, I can’t quite find the words. There was a veranda, in the shade, by the sunny courtyard (in my childhood memories it’s always sunny). There’s an armchair in the middle of the veranda, and the sensation of an endlessly repeated, delightful dive. The sensation also of something that would accompany me all my life. An impression of plenitude, because “all my life” (perhaps eventually I’ll manage to smile about it, but I say it today with a certain bitterness), “all my life”, at the time, seemed to me as if it would be very long.

I thought my life was going to be happy, and I didn’t even exactly imagine unhappiness. Life seemed to me to be a delight and a gift, and reading was one of the joys of this endlessly delightful life.

I was a child. I was happy, and happiness leaves few traces.

Little by little I learned what the life of men was really like; I learned it, too, through their books. Probably my grandparents never paid attention to the age difference that existed in principle between the works of the Bibliothèque rose (Pink Library) and those of the Bibliothèque verte (Green Library); what other explanation can there be for the fact that I was able to find myself reading Graziella at the age of ten?

This book contains the whole of nascent romanticism, in its budding youth and strength, and ‘Le Premier Regret’ (‘The First Regret’), with which the book concludes, is a poem of incredible purity. Never before Lamartine and never after him (not even in Racine, or Victor Hugo) had a poet written, or will ever write, alexandrines with this naturalness, this spontaneity, this impulse straight from the heart.

How could Lamartine, who knew Graziella when he was 18 and she was 16, ever have forgotten her? How could he still continue to live? And how could the reader of Lamartine devote his life to anything other than meeting a 16-year-old Graziella? What fascinating crap literature is, you have to admit it… So pernicious, so powerful, incredibly more powerful than cinema, and even more pernicious than music.

There were other things, too. There was the nauseating Jack London, whom Lenin loved so much (and it’s undoubtedly Lenin’s overt admiration for Jack London, his cynical acceptance of the struggle for life, poles apart from the supposed generosity that attaches to the word ‘Communism’, which opened my eyes and stopped me in advance, once and for all, from getting close to Marxism). There was the marvellous Dickens (never again will I laugh so loudly, so heartily, never again will I laugh until I cry, great gales of laughter, as I did when I was nine years old and discovered The Pickwick Papers.) There was Jules Verne, there were Andersen’s tales — The Little Match Girl broke my heart, and continues, with ruthless regularity, to break it again every time I re-read it.

I also remember the Rouge et Or collection, with its naive illustrations (a bit more expensive probably, most likely a birthday or Christmas present). I have only good memories of that period. Still, they shouldn’t have let me read Graziella when I was ten. Little girls were seeking my company at the time, and some, I realise today, already had ulterior motives. Anyway, on the whole, things were off to a good start, but soon after that came puberty, just as the fashion for mini-skirts began, I struggled to reconcile that with reading Graziella, I started to reject what was reaching out to me — even though it inspired me with terrible longings — and to look for things in life that weren’t there; in short things started to get pretty screwed up for me, and I still think a bit it’s partly Lamartine’s fault. It was around the same time that I gave up children’s collections for paperbacks.

For me, there were two worthwhile collections: Le Livre de Poche and J’ai lu. I hated Folio and Présence du Futur: too expensive, with off-putting covers and above all horribly poorly made; you only had to open these books a dozen times and the poorly glued pages would fall out and the book would go to shreds — while the books published by Livre de Poche and especially J’ai lu were indestructible, and this was essential because these were the books I opened more than a dozen times. I took them everywhere, to the cafe, to the high-school canteen, on the train — and soon I wasn’t just taking commuter trains, but trains that crossed Europe. It was the time of the inter-rail card. I slept in dusty campsites, in the cellars of damp buildings, and my J’ai lu books are still around. I have them near me as I write. Now I’m rich, I travel in business class. They have nothing to worry about, it’s all okay.

Later, after my marriage and my professional life broke down, I took up writing. I started, more precisely, to write novels, which were published, which brought me fame and fortune, relatively speaking. Suddenly I started to read my contemporaries, I discovered normal editions. However, I have never stopped reading, or rereading, paperbacks, and it was a great joy for me to be published in J’ai lu — of course, I wouldn’t have refused Folio or Presses-Pocket if my editor had wished it, but, all the same, the moment when I saw myself for the first time coming out as a J’ai lu remains one of the most beautiful moments of my life.

Today I read my contemporaries a little less. I reread more — that’s normal, I’m getting old. I now know that I’ll read until the end of my days — maybe I’ll stop smoking, obviously I’ll stop making love, and the conversation of men will gradually lose its interest for me; but I can’t imagine myself without a book.

I have never felt any particular fetishism for original editions, for the book as object — I’m mainly interested in the content. And I’m gradually replacing my books in regular paperback editions with some of those wonderful objects, so practical when travelling — the Pléiades, the Bouquins or the Omnibus. There are still a few exceptions, for sentimental reasons, and it seems unlikely to me — even if things go wrong again, even if I end up in a furnished room with one or two big suitcases, and that’s still possible, of course — that I will ever part with certain of my books; especially certain of my J’ai lu books.

Michel Houellebecq’s Interventions 2020, where this essay originally appeared, is published by Polity books. 


Michel Houellebecq is a French author of novels, poems and essays. His latest book is Serotonin. 


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Simon Denis
Simon Denis
2 years ago

A splendid article. Such a pity that so many of the comments exhibit such philistine incomprehension. I daresay their authors are looking for a forceful, contentious, contemptuous argument, something to rub the other side’s nose in it and assert the adamantine rectitude of “our side’s” position. Well, that – as Douglas Murray has emphasised – is one of the problems we face today: too much argument, too much malice and contempt; too much in the way of laboured grappling with political issues and things in the news. Here, instead of all that, we have an oasis of confession and appreciation; of humility and sympathy; in short, of culture. This is the civilisation which all the rough hewn eloquence of the debating chamber is supposed to defend. And to greet this open, tender, humane document with the churlish ignorance and spite on display below the line is grotesque. It is bad as anything the left might say and shows how completely society has been been drenched in the first, greatest mistake the left can make – Lenin’s mistake – which is to treat existence as conflict. Make that blunder and you end up treating others as enemies or slaves. Solzhenitsyn saw this, too. It is, perhaps, a tactical weakness of the right, that bearing the burdens of reality and pity and pessimism on its back, it retreats, it escapes, it compromises. But should the right forget these things, it forgets itself and the defence of culture against monstrous Leninism is lost.

Russell Hamilton
Russell Hamilton
2 years ago

Yes, as you get older you become incredibly grateful for having been able to read so much. Today I was reading a new-ish novel, Light Perpetual, by Francis Spufford (he can really write) and he uses a plot device to gather his characters at the beginning of the novel, which made me think: ‘like The Bridge of San Luis Rey’ and then think ‘who on earth would read Thornton Wilder these days?”

So many great recent novelists – William Golding, Anthony Burgess – are never mentioned now. I suppose they can’t compete with Netflix, but they were essential companions in helping me come to see life as I do. I don’t really think streaming services can adequately replace the habit of reading good literature – the avalanche of stuff pouring down the channels onto screens doesn’t lend itself to reflective explorations of other perspectives.

Ferrusian Gambit
Ferrusian Gambit
2 years ago

Red Plenty was another work of his I enjoyed greatly.

David Owsley
David Owsley
2 years ago

to those who ask ‘Who?’ or ‘What?’ in the comments I suggest “Submission” – although only from 2015, so a long way from his first – is a good place to start!

Drahcir Nevarc
Drahcir Nevarc
2 years ago
Reply to  David Owsley

Yes, or Serotonine.

Richard Parker
Richard Parker
2 years ago
Reply to  Drahcir Nevarc

Agreed – though I’ve found great satisfaction in any of Monsieur Houellebecq’s novels I’ve so far read, “Serotonine” was a notable delight.

Brian Villanueva
Brian Villanueva
2 years ago
Reply to  David Owsley

I second submission. More accessible and timely. Can’t you see Mélenchon and Macron aligning with an nascent Islamist party to deny Le-Pen the presidency? (In the name of stopping French fascism, we must get into bed with Islamic fascists.) As Le-Pen rises in the polls, this story is believable in a way it wasn’t 6 years ago.

Francis MacGabhann
Francis MacGabhann
2 years ago

Wot?

Paul Rogers
Paul Rogers
2 years ago

Eloquently put, sir.

Jorge Espinha
Jorge Espinha
2 years ago

Very good article. I share his views regarding paperbacks. If you are mobile or like to read lying down, paperbacks are the best. I have read many of his books. Some in French. He’s a wonderful writer.

Claire D
Claire D
2 years ago

I have’nt read any of this gentleman’s books, but this article made me like him so I will try one of them. Can someone please tell me which one I should read first ?

Martin Smith
Martin Smith
2 years ago
Reply to  Claire D

He’s a little too fond of describing buggery, bestiality and paedophilia for my liking, so be warned. “Soumission” is definitely worth a read though, especially at this time.

Claire D
Claire D
2 years ago
Reply to  Martin Smith

Oh dear, thank you for the warning.
I will have a look at ‘Soumission’, thanks.

Last edited 2 years ago by Claire D
Brendan O'Leary
Brendan O'Leary
2 years ago
Reply to  Claire D

Me neither but everyone seems to rate “Submission” .

The novel imagines a situation in which a Muslim party upholding Islamist and patriarchal values is able to win the 2022 presidential election in France with the support of the Socialist Party.

Drahcir Nevarc
Drahcir Nevarc
2 years ago
Reply to  Claire D

I read Soumission first followed by Serotonine, both in French, and thought they were great. I’m now about a quarter of the way into Les Particules Elementaires, which I haven’t quite got the hang of but sense myself warming to.

Brian Villanueva
Brian Villanueva
2 years ago
Reply to  Drahcir Nevarc

I finally gave up on Elementary Particles. But I don’t speak French, so perhaps it got lost in translation for me.

Richard Parker
Richard Parker
2 years ago
Reply to  Drahcir Nevarc

I find it engaging – not my favourite of his oeuvre, but still a book I shall revisit, I am sure.

Brian Villanueva
Brian Villanueva
2 years ago
Reply to  Claire D

Submission. Absolutely. In light of the French Presidential election this week, the scenario he presents there is completely believable.

bagarthach
bagarthach
2 years ago
Reply to  Claire D

My recommendation would be “The Possibility of an Island”, followed by “Elementary Particles”, then maybe his bookish length monograph on Lovecraft (you don’t really have to know anything about Lovecraft, it’s an interesting read and provides at least as much insight into Houellebecq, if not more, than Lovecraft). In a lot of ways Houellebecq is stylistically a pre-modern novelist, so to my sensibilities his less Science Fiction-y stuff feels a little off-key, but it works gloriously in the SF genre with a sort of updated H.G. Wells vibe, and, in fact, I consider “The Possibility of an Island” to be an example of a perfect New Wave SF novel. The translation of both the novels I recommended is pretty good, but “The Possibility of an Island” definitely has a different feel in the French.

Last edited 2 years ago by bagarthach
Claire D
Claire D
2 years ago
Reply to  bagarthach

Thanks for your suggestions, and to all the others also.

John Lee
John Lee
2 years ago

I loved the Jack London books when I was a child.
Any thing that gets a child reading is good.

Martin Brumby
Martin Brumby
2 years ago
Reply to  John Lee

Any thing that gets a child reading is good.”
In theory, absolutely right.
But have you seen some of the pernicious crap that gets published today, especially that targetted for children?
Hmmm. I’m no longer sure.

Russell Hamilton
Russell Hamilton
2 years ago
Reply to  Martin Brumby

The oeuvre of Nigel Molesworth might keep their attention??

David Colledge
David Colledge
2 years ago

Indeed. The prunes are revolting…

Drahcir Nevarc
Drahcir Nevarc
2 years ago
Reply to  Martin Brumby

I’ve made a resolution only to read books by white men from now on, until a vague date in the future when wokeness is properly on the run.

Neil McNab
Neil McNab
2 years ago
Reply to  Drahcir Nevarc

If that’s not irony then it’s plain crass.

polidori redux
polidori redux
2 years ago
Reply to  John Lee

i read them. But I couldn’t get enough of Biggles.

Drahcir Nevarc
Drahcir Nevarc
2 years ago

Jusqu’a hier soir, j’ai lu 72 pages de Les Particules Elementaires.

ARNAUD ALMARIC
ARNAUD ALMARIC
2 years ago
Reply to  Drahcir Nevarc

Vous es peut-être maso?

Drahcir Nevarc
Drahcir Nevarc
2 years ago
Reply to  ARNAUD ALMARIC

Ca doit etre ainsi, vu que j’ai lu le plupart de la reste de ses livres.

David Smith
David Smith
2 years ago
Reply to  Drahcir Nevarc

quelle perte de vie

Drahcir Nevarc
Drahcir Nevarc
2 years ago
Reply to  David Smith

C’est mon croix que je dois supporter.

Phil Mack
Phil Mack
2 years ago
Reply to  David Smith

On t’a sonné?

Susan Sandford
Susan Sandford
2 years ago

I’ve only read Seratonin, in French, so I may have missed something – but then you miss something when you read in translation anyway. It’s a difficult read, extremely bleak, but his great skill is to write without illusion. What he writes in this essay here is interesting, because it suggests a lost happiness, a lost innocence – which acknowledges that happiness is possible; something that’s not at all obvious when reading his work. He’s a disenchanted romantic, perhaps , even a moralist, despite, or maybe because of, the descriptions of sexual degradation.

polidori redux
polidori redux
2 years ago
Reply to  Susan Sandford

My generation read Jean Genet. And of course, Baudelaire. Even as a young carefree hippy I knew, in my heart of hearts, that it was pretty degrading stuff, and I wouldn’t share it with my girlfriend – She was worth far more. I assume that this guy is the same. Squalor is squalor, whatever the fancy accent.

bagarthach
bagarthach
2 years ago

I love this article-one of my favorite games is guessing what’s on my favorite author’s bookshelves and Houellebecq is great fun to try to suss out–I remember about 10 years ago my girlfriend read “The Possibility of an Island” at my suggestion and she said it reminded her of the book about ‘the dogs’. I was thrilled to find an article where Houelllebecq said that Simak’s “City” was a masterpiece :).

Terence Fitch
Terence Fitch
2 years ago

It isn’t true that ‘only’ reading can prepare one for life’s tragedies. Life’s tragedies prepare one for the next tragedy and other real people help you to endure them. Life itself is the primary experience reading is secondary though important.

Last edited 2 years ago by Terence Fitch
David Smith
David Smith
2 years ago

Always look on the bright side eh

Martin Smith
Martin Smith
2 years ago
Reply to  David Smith

Henry Miller would have liked him.

Russell Hamilton
Russell Hamilton
2 years ago
Reply to  Martin Smith

Do you think so? Miller’s novels seemed to me to be full of life and energy (very American!) whereas Houellebecq doesn’t strike me that way.

Last edited 2 years ago by Russell Hamilton
Mark Kennedy
Mark Kennedy
2 years ago

The two are writing in different eras, don’t forget. Miller is scandalously underrated for reasons that have nothing to do with literary merit, but for Houellebecq (who has Phillistines of his own to contend with) to recapitulate the sensibilities of the 1920s and 30s would be pointless.

John Ramsden
John Ramsden
2 years ago

I read two or three DIckens books as a child, but even then was somewhat put off by the ridiculous contrived “jokey” names of many of his characters. Doubtless he had many good qualities, as both a writer and a person, but I imagine he must have had a rather tiresome and laboured sense of humour!

Hersch Schneider
Hersch Schneider
2 years ago
Reply to  John Ramsden

Don’t be such an Ebenezer Scrooge!

Drahcir Nevarc
Drahcir Nevarc
2 years ago
Reply to  John Ramsden

It might be worth trying again. I didn’t get into Dickens until my thirties, and was then captivated.

Mike Bell
Mike Bell
2 years ago
Reply to  John Ramsden

The characters in Dickens’ novels are designed to be accessible to the casual reader and children. They are successful at that – but at a cost of being almost useless as giving insight into the real world.
I gather that it is Dickens who is responsible for the myth that Victorian fathers were cold and not interested in their children.

Drahcir Nevarc
Drahcir Nevarc
2 years ago
Reply to  Mike Bell

He was himself a terrible father, apparently.

Michael Sinclair
Michael Sinclair
2 years ago

Gulliver’s Travels – a book for all times –
Moby d**k – we have a captain Ahab president of Russia –
(I see there is inbuilt editing here!)

Last edited 2 years ago by Michael Sinclair
Mike Bell
Mike Bell
2 years ago

“Only reading can prepare us for life’s tragedies”What a load of twaddle! Your statement is

  • incorrect
  • an insult to those of us who have hardly read any novels
  • an insult to those who find reading hard

Are you saying that only those who read books can be prepared ‘for life’s tragedies’?
In my life-experience many people who read a lot of books know almost nothing. They fill their heads with stories and cannot tell you anything about the one they read last week.
Novels are not life – the successful author creates a story that people like to read – that doesn’t make it helpful.
I have no problem with people reading lots of books if they enjoy that, but stop pretending that it’s anything more than entertainment.
If you believe the people in the real-world are like to characters in these fictions you will get a very distorted view of life.
Look up and look out of the window – reality beckons.